
I need to get over the fact that I will always look like this minus the large ta tas. Just the way it is and I need to start caring about more important things. This is a blogfailllllll. I thought writing everything down would make me feel more alert about what I was eating, you know- keep me on track. NOPE. It just made me think about eating even more. I guess this works for some people, but for me I just need to listen to my body and make good decisions and ultimately eat what I want to eat. I wish this wasn’t something I struggled with everyday. But honestly, being overweight (I’m not technically overweight- but a few pounds heavier than I have been before) makes me feel REALLY uncomfortable. My squishy thighs stick together in the heat, my jeans rub in weird places, shirts rise and I’m actually SCARED of being fat and unhealthy. I’m afraid of what being slightly heavy could turn into. Will I go off the deep end? I know I could never let it- but not being able to exercise as I want/need to is very depressing. I think I’d be so much less anxious and stressed out if I felt comfortable in my skin. I just don’t, and I need to learn how to so I can be happy. There are more important things in life.
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